What Is ___?

I feel like a two year old.
I have these questions like,

What is love?
What does Hosanna really mean?
What is grace?
Why can't I define Holy?

I know there are dictionary definitions to my questions. . .
but I want to know these things.

I want to know experience.
I want to feel the odd kind of relationship between love and grace and brokenness and sin.

I lost the rest of my thoughts. . .
so goodnight